Ippy's Journal of Impending Doom

immortalpain @ 2004-12-27T06:24:00

2004-12-27T14:26:51Z

Hey guys.
Except for -possibly- the occassional post, I am retiring this journal.
No offense to any of you. Its just not who I am anymore and all that other meaningful bullshit :>

Love ya'll, but, its time for a change.

Feel free to unfriend this journal. I'll start clearing out the friends list soon so none of you feel obligated to keep a dead journal on your list.

Just some clarification, I'm not doing this with any bad feelings or anything like that. I've grown up, I've changed, I'm moving on. All of you should expect your cards soon, I'm sorry its after christmas but stuffs been happening.

I've been planning this for awhile and after a trail run, I honestly feel it is the right thing. I doubt I will be deleting this journal ever, however, for the would just be foolish.

But, no hard feelings. Love you all, but I'm going to new places and striving to be the best that I can be.

immortalpain @ 2004-12-16T17:14:00

2004-12-07T01:15:28Z

Overseas cards have been sent.
coffeewolf, shirikdraguinea, loupgarou, weedos and raym0nd, expect your cards in about a week or so :O

Next batch will be Canada and the eastern states :> Hooray!

immortalpain @ 2004-12-05T01:23:00

2004-12-05T09:24:49Z

You know, I have a really hard time believing I'm turning 20 on th 16th. :( Wtf.
I don't feel old enough to be 20.
I want to keep my TEENS please :(((

immortalpain @ 2004-11-26T13:41:00

2004-11-26T21:44:11Z

Quick bit of art before I run off into the blue:

Mmm Peter Chung.

For the RO card contest thing. Final version is quite a bit different and doesn't have an ugly watermark.

Another RO card contest thing (WIP mind you)... or an evil furry. Take your guess.

AND NOW I'M OFF!

immortalpain @ 2004-11-23T16:12:00

2004-11-24T00:13:41Z

I've been going to bed early and waking up early.
My sleep schedule is beginning to border on being healthy and normal.
This will not do.

immortalpain @ 2004-11-19T09:52:00

2004-11-19T17:53:57Z

We were both cast forth from the same pale hand
And we both moved freely in the shadowlands
And we both were sculpted by the same cold wind
And we both had armor that was made of tin
And I tried to find you, but it's useless
And I tried to speak, but it was useless
And I felt so bad and I didn't know why
And it didn't get better as time went by
I was there for you, but you turned away
And I tried to find you, but you turned away
And I tried to find you, but it's useless
And I tried to speak, but was useless
And I tried to find you, but it's useless
And you're so close, but I can't see you
And you're right there, but I can't see you
And I feel so dumb and I didn't know what to do
You were right there but I can't see you
And I realize that it's useless
And I want to fight, but it's useless
And I know you're there, but it's useless
And you're everywhere, but it's useless
And I tried to say it, but my tongue got tied
And I tried to say it, but I was numb inside
And I can't see you anymore
And my peace of mind has gone through the door
And I realize that it's useless
And I thought I was right, but it was useless
And I know you're there, but it's useless
And you're everywhere, but it's useless
And I can't see now in front of my nose
And I know you're there, and I know you're close
And you're fading away - now you disappear
And I try to focus, but I can't see clear
And I don't know why I feel this way
And I can't control myself anyway
And I don't know why I feel this way
And I can't control myself anyway
And I feel so bad, but it's useless
And I feel so bad, but it's useless
And I feel so bad, but it's useless
And I can't see... now in front of my face.

It's a pretty song.

immortalpain @ 2004-11-10T03:16:00

2004-11-10T11:19:16Z

HAhahahahah
All these freaks who are all "HALO 2 SUCKS" really need to chill out, seriously.
Lets see, the game was released YESTERDAY. If you have beaten the game already have you REALLY TAKEN THE TIME TO ENJOY IT? I mean, really?
Jesus christ, people are tards.

I waited 2 years for this game. It will not kill me to take my time and ENJOY playing it.
Which, by the way, I am.
A lot.
A whole hell of a lot.

... <3~ I love this game. And the marines drive the warthog much better then I do, and they deserve a freaking MEDAL for that.
Seriously.
The way I drive the damn warthog is I bounce off of walls until I hopefully go in the right direction :( Its not pretty.

Ehehehehe. Can't wait until I get XBOX Live <3~

P.S. If Halo 2 offends you beyond all reason this would be the time to unfriend me. I forsee a whole hell of a lot of Halo 2 rambling for the next week/month/year or so. Well, maybe a week or two.

immortalpain @ 2004-11-09T02:34:00

2004-11-09T10:35:49Z

OH MY GOD HALO 2

OH MY GOOODDDDD
HALO 2

JSDIJAHBDoishndoiadhnoIHNDOISNBDILsndoindoisdnOINDSOINDldsn
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

immortalpain @ 2004-11-08T18:05:00

2004-11-09T02:15:29Z

Holy crap at the response to christmas cards :O
28 so far <3~ Ah well, I love it :D Already started too.
However, I need clarification from lordmad and weedos. Weedos, your address is confusing :( Please comment on the other thread with how to right it with enter spaces and stuff, and I need a name from BOTH OF YOU, unless you want me to send the card to "THE NAMELESS FREAK" >(

Anyhow, tonight is HALO 2 NIGHT
Starting at 9:00 pm I will be waiting outside the Vancouver Mall for hours until 11pm when the doors open, where I will be waiting for another hour until 12am when Gamestop opens where I will be getting my beloved copy of Halo 2 which I have been waiting for 2 years and have had reserved for a year :( I am VERY excited. I cannot WAIT to play this game. Matt and Karen are apparently coming with to freeze to death with me, so it should be fun ~ Gunna bring my camera too :D

SO EVERYONE
PRAY WE DON'T FREEZE TO DEATH

immortalpain @ 2004-11-07T21:48:00

2004-11-08T05:49:13Z

CHRISTMAS CARDS
I have a million stamps already.
I have the cards.
ITS GOING TO HAPPEN.
If you want one, leave your address.
Don't worry, the comments are all screened :)
And I won't stalk cos STALKING IS EXPENSIVE OKAY >(

immortalpain @ 2004-11-02T22:20:00

2004-11-03T06:28:08Z

The United States is not a democracy.
It is a REPUBLIC.

The President doesn't hold the key to the world. He has power and a good say in things, but, congress and the senate has the power.

We do not know everything about what is going on in the country and around the world, and it is safe to assume the president knows much more then we could ever hope to know, especially at this point in time. What the media feeds us is not 100% of the truth and 100% accurate. A lot of information the President, the senate and the other governing bodies make their decisions on is secret. We do not have access to this information. It is not in our right to judge.

We can, however, vote for a leader. While the President may not bend the nation to his will, he can urge the nation, the senate and everything into directions that would help make our nation the best it can be. He will try and guide the bills, the ideas and the movements in the directions he represents.
The President is not a dictator.
He is a leader.

He does not make all the choices. He never has made all the choices, but he influences those who do make the choices.

So stop freaking out already. If you want change, look carefully at those who you vote for the senate, for congress, those people. More change can be found by who you elect there then who is the figurehead of our country any day.

immortalpain @ 2004-10-27T02:47:00

2004-10-27T09:49:12Z

It's odd, sitting and minding your own business when you suddenly get this crippling longing to talk to someone important from your past.

Weird.
Very weird.

Sigh :(

immortalpain @ 2004-10-16T18:13:00

2004-10-17T00:26:00Z

Fun Fact:
The waffles in my back yard are still there. They have not been gnawed, moved and they haven't even began molding either.

They are merely sitting.
Being frightening

... demon waffles.

immortalpain @ 2004-10-16T15:33:00

2004-10-16T21:49:04Z

My head and my hands are having serious communication problems.

My head and my sense of design demands smooth lines, certainty and such from my hands, while my hands will hear nothing of the sort and cling desperately to the shakey broken and uncertain linestyle they seem to adore.

This really isn't working out how I'd like it to.
They really need to come to some sort of conclusion.
Or I should stop wishing to draw in styles that certainly do not suit the work that ultimately my hands want to produce.
I like broken, uncertain styles, you know? But everywhere you look all the praise goes to the smoothness, to the certain lines, to the clean artwork and its just kind of agrivating to sit back and stare at what you're producing and wonder why you can't do the same.
I really should stick to what I secretly enjoy drawing, but the otherside is always greener. Much greener. >:|

Ah well, I'll figure it out someday.

Oh yeah
<3 for eeriedescent

immortalpain @ 2004-10-14T01:08:00

2004-10-14T07:28:42Z

Arrrrt.
I don't think the file sizes are that big, they're all pretty limited color palletes, all done in MS Paint. Give a look if you want:

He is one hot bishonen. kawaii~~ or whatever.

Dunno :| Just kinda poured out.

I think this was semi-inspired by Criminal Macabre, an awesome comic.

Inspired by the song "Watching Over You" by Seabound. Glow sent it to me, and its gorgeous ~__~

MS Paint is fun D:

immortalpain @ 2004-10-12T15:46:00

2004-10-12T21:58:04Z

GUESS WHO HAS DSL.

Really.

Guess.
I dare you.

... eeeeeee!

Though on this computer its like strapping a jet engine on a golfcart :|

immortalpain @ 2004-10-10T00:54:00

2004-10-10T08:01:33Z

Lets see here.
Toe = Much better. Sandals = BAD though. Not listening to my mom on that again. Its all cool though, cos its scabbed over and toenail-less. It makes me happy in some odd way.

Waffles = SUX. I have cereal now. MMM CEREAL. I love breakfast foods I can't possibly ruin in a million years. Now to wake up early enough for breakfast!

E-mail = MIA :( :( :(

Computer = Who knows :|

So, yeah.
Not much happening.
I've got an ~awesome~ halloween costume idea (You know it's awesome cos of the tildes) and I can't wait for halloween because of it.
I couldn't think of anything so while I was browsing costumes with Em and Karen the other day I got this bizarre idea to go as the very very very gay grimreaper. It's like, the unholy love brother of my gay Zombie, only worse. Anyhow, gonna have the basic reaper robe, some random scary mask, a set of butterfly wings (Pink), a horrible feather boa (Pink) a fairy wand (in place of the scythe) and a horrible gaudy feather mask to go over the skull mask thing.
Its not that hard, no, and it fits as I have no idea what else to even attempt, so I'm going with it. If anyone has any suggestions for my lovely costume, please share.

I'm also hoping my horrific bad luck is going away now. WE CAN HOPE, RIGHT!?
RIGHT!?!

YES WE CAN.

(...note to self, stop being lazy and reorder your 50 icons. Your choices are far to limited.)

immortalpain @ 2004-10-08T07:53:00

2004-10-08T14:58:36Z

So I woke up early today (omg its still early) and was all "YAY I AM GUNNA HAVE BREAKFAST :D!" And it was such a great idea so I popped two frozen waffles into the toaster (Mmmm waffles) and went on my merry way.

And then.

DEMON TOASTER ATTACKED

I was minding my own business, browsing some webpages when I realized a familiar "ka-POP" I should have heard by now had not been heard! So I dashed with all my might into the kitchen and slammed the little lever up on the toaster only to met with
THE MOST HORRIBLE SCENT IMAGINABLE
I swear to GOD my freaking nostrils burnt and my eyes teared up and I recoiled away from the toaster in utter shock and disgust.
The waffles I once had were now SMOLDERING PIECES OF BRIMSTONE eating away at the air with their horrific fumes, and chewing away my soul.

I backed further up from the toaster, opening a drawer behind me and desperately searching for some sort of weapon to combat this hellacious evil when I found a pair of tonges and with GREAT MIGHT grabbed the evil HELL WAFFLES in their heroic grip and chucked them out the door!

My god, it was a horrible battle. The wounds run deep and the horrific smell still lingers in my tortured nose, but I WILL PREVAIL.

Or not... I really don't feel like breakfast anymore :|

immortalpain @ 2004-10-06T17:31:00

2004-10-07T00:02:42Z

So, angst aside (sorry, just had to let it out before I went crazy :() I grew some balls and became a man.

I ripped my toenail off my foot.
I am free from it's tyrany.

It started when I began wondering if maybe my toe would recover faster if the toenail, still mostly loose, wasn't rubbing against my poor toe as I walked, so last night while working on the computer I began to wiggle it curiously. I hear this faint sort of ripping velcro sound (well, not really hear as much as feel it) and suddenly I have an idea:

I WILL FREE MY TOE.

So after about 10 minutes of carefully wiggling it and pulling it, I finally got it mostly unstuck and then with a great big YANK it came off.
And I bled all over, peroxided the crap out of it and then bandaged it up.
And holy crap, I couldn't be happier.
It now has a chance to start fresh, be happy and heal nicely. It hasn't even been hurting anywhere nearly as much :D

So, I am freed from my toe and I am a very happy camper :*)

immortalpain @ 2004-10-06T00:14:00

2004-10-06T06:26:59Z

So here I am.
Waiting in vain for an e-mail that may not even come.
Days.
Maybe even a week. Maybe even two.
I hate waiting.
Especially when you don't know if it'll ever be sent.

But hey, I regress. I'm not going to give up, god forbid I ever do. I can be as stubborn as the best of them and I will not rest, I will not let it pass, even if I have to -crawl- for it.

This I swear.

I will make amends.

immortalpain @ 2004-10-02T16:38:00

2004-10-02T22:49:41Z

Hey guys
Gunna be scarce
My nice computer is fubar
This one pisses me off. :( I'll be on from time to time though, mostly gone.
Love you guysssss

immortalpain @ 2004-10-01T14:31:00

2004-10-01T21:35:34Z

Sorry I'm posting so much D:!
But, if the Mt St Helens eruption isn't exciting enough, here's more excitement:

My toe is trying to kill me :( I snagged the big toe.. toenail on my sheets in bed a few nights ago (left foot) when I was tossing and turning and like, managed to rip most of it away from the toe. I was groggy so I was just kinda like "Whahuh" at first and in the morning it was like, omg pain. Well, after lots of nastiness it kinda reattatched to the foot and was getting better with some pain here and there but now I'm going around, unpacking from California still and I STUB THAT TOE. #@(*HJNDSJKDBHSOIDJSIDULGBD@(*EHNUOWD

So now my toe is having a mini eruption and bleeding again and being all mean and I'm about ready to amputate cos its pissing me off >:|
Jesus christ. I've got it all bandaged again and its finally starting to stop bleeding again, I think and its just annoying >:/
So yeah, mini-toe eruptions. Good day, good day.

... the pain T__T

immortalpain @ 2004-10-01T12:45:00

2004-10-01T19:46:42Z

Dude o__o

Mt. St Helens just erupted.

immortalpain @ 2004-10-01T00:16:00

2004-10-01T07:24:52Z

HaY guyz
I've made art
I've also forgotten how to resize drawings, so they might be big. You have been warned.

I like this one.

And a color one:
http://immortalpain.awedco.net/beatdown.jpg
And it's B&W Counterpart:
http://immortalpain.awedco.net/beatdownbw.jpg

A random test of my RO priest thing:
http://immortalpain.awedco.net/ippytest2.jpg

And a self portrait:
http://immortalpain.awedco.net/ippyloves.gif

Yaaay art. Yaay.

immortalpain @ 2004-09-28T21:14:00

2004-09-29T04:17:49Z

My sims are little shits.
They never do what I want them to do.
They die when I don't want them to either.
"LETZ FIX THIS BROKEN COMPUTER"
"No. Bad sim."
"I FIX!!! :D"
"No, stop."
"O CRAP I AM BEING SHOCKED."
"..."
"O NOEZ I AM DYING"
"..."
"HAHAHHAA GRIM REAPER WON'T REZ ME :("
And thats when I quit without saving and come back to TRY AGAIN.
Anyhow, Sims 2 is great. I love it. Its so random, and I actually want to get somewhere in the game this time rather then killing the sims off and making giant graveyards. Its fun.

Oh, and this journal is no longer friend's only. I don't care enough anymore to make it friends only or worry about who is reading it. So, HELLO WORLD.